This is the month of Elul, the sacred time in which we prepare ourselves for the new year and for the holiest of days – Yom Kippur. Although it is called the day of atonement, its meaning I think is much more interesting.
We are called on, in this time of preparation, to look at our year, our lives, our internal and external selves. We are supposed to see what we could have done better, what we can do to be our better selves, to improve. What we have to apologize for, to make amends for so that each new year begins as a clean slate, lunar calendar that is.
And I admit, I have been slacking. Life intrudes as always and makes it hard to make quiet space for the reflection we are asked to do. And even more important, I think it should be done with pen and paper, not just in my head. So this confession is to inspire me to make that space. To do the work. It is never easy if you do it right, it requires serious internal digging, but the rewards can be remarkable.
Looking at my physical self, I know I can do better, food, weight, exercise, meditation. The list is self evident and requires a bit of a deeper look. My communal relationships, of course I can do better, again. Reaching out to people, feeding my friendships, building relationships. I can always do more. My emotional self, I can always work on not living in feelings. As I know feelings aren’t facts. I can always work on gratitude as an antidote to the hard feelings and enjoying the good ones in the moments they happen. My spiritual self, we are back to meditation, prayer and the internal work of this most wonderful time of year.
So, not really slacking, just a little slow in putting pen to paper and doing the digging. The pen is the most effective shovel I know of, just have to pick it up. This is the start. [tweetshare tweet=”Hopefully by Yom Kippur I will be ready, a clean slate once more for the year to come, or at least having cleared some of the detritus away. L’shanah tovah umetekah. A sweet and wonderful new year, just a snitch early.” username=”@trienahm”]